Give Up

My friend gave me two choices, either ask for a clear situation or just give up.
At first I choose the second one, but then I thought, if I want to die (This is not the real die of course........ =.=" ), I want to die with reason.
So I choose the first one.
But the conclusion is, it's no difference with the second one.
Somehow, I just felt that he might mean that I'm not good enough......
Never mind, I will change myself to be a better me, but not for him of course, it will be meaningless if I purposely change myself just for him.
Do I feel sad? Of course I will..... But I had fell for so many times...... So I think I can handle this.....
I think is time to let the waves wash away my footprints........ Give up.......